IWSG - The Fun House Mirror

How could I possibly be writing an insecure writer blog post the day after I miraculously completed my second novel? Easy. Today is the day of reflecting. The day where I look back on the last month of creating, writing and inventing and warp it. I look into my writer's reflecting glass and can help but see how terrible my novel is. Why am I doing this to myself? Because I am a writer and writers are insecure.

In the last 20 hours I have told myself

• I should just trash the novel now that I am done with it.
• I should give up on novel writing all together.
• Instead of revising, I should just start over because the first draft is so worthless.

 ...it goes on from there. With every insecure thought I remind myself that I somehow wrote over 15,000 words yesterday and that there are good pieces in the story. It may not live to be a full length novel, but perhaps parts will be short stories or novellas.  I keep telling myself all the things I know I should be proud of, and I am proud of, but in the quiet in-betweens my insecure voice returns. I let her talk, sometimes I listen, but I promise I won't let her rule me!

Thanks for the support!

How do you keep your insecure voice quiet? 

The Insecure Writer's Support Group

The timing is perfect.

I am sitting here tonight, proud that I've been keeping up with my A to Z blogging challenge, but wondering what's wrong with me when it comes to my Camp NaNoWriMo project. True, I didn't plan the story before April started out, but that's never been such a problem before. It's day three of April, I should be at least 5,000 words into my novel. I should be getting to know my characters and I should be journeying to a new and fictional world with them.

Only that's not the case.

I'm lost. I'm wandering around in my own reality desperately on a quest for the story I want to tell. It's so silly, because the problem is that I have so many stories I want to tell that they are in competition in my brain.

I know what I have to do. I have to write. I can't allow myself to stop. I have to just keep going, get the words out there and, in this case, the loudest characters win. Whoever screams the loudest and fights their way to the page wins.

This is what I have to do, but I keep fearing that I will make the wrong choice and waste time on a character that doesn't want to be heard yet. It's a silly thing to worry about. It's my insecurity not allowing me to go forward.

That's why I'm saying the timing is perfect, because today is the day that I found out about The Insecure Writer's Support Group and this is my first post in joining the group.

Hi Everyone. My name is Nicole Rivera and I am an insecure writer.

Here are some of my friends...